Here Goes Nothing

Something that someone told me a couple of weeks ago got me thinking a little bit. After a short conversation with this woman, she told me God wanted her to tell me something. She told me that “the generational curse has been broken,” and that I don’t have to live in it anymore. I never doubted that God really wanted her to say that, but honestly I had NO idea what she was talking about. But it got me thinking, and I love to think. So I thought about it, and prayed about it, (well, more thought about it during prayer). Until one day, I had a talk with Pastor Fred about whether I will be doing a third year of EMC or not. One thing that we talked about was my inability to communicate with other people. But what I knew was that if I were to do a third year, it would help me develop my communication skills. So I decided that I would go ahead and do it. It wasn’t until after I walked away that I realized my problem talking was exactly the generational curse that was to be broken. You see, while I was growing up, I didn’t have very many people who were interested in talking to me or getting to know me. So I never had anybody to talk to, to express my feelings to. This is why it is so hard for me to open up with other people, tell people what my strengths and weaknesses are, or what I like to do in my spare time. These are things that I never had to think about until I started doing EMC. It really is the perfect explanation to why I am the way that I am. But all that will be changing. As I continue on with EMC, God is going to be transforming my whole way of thinking. He is going to make me into somebody I have only dreamed of becoming. I truly believe that this is going to be one the most influential years of my entire life.